Tomorrow marks the end of an era...my son will be spending the majority of his day with someone besides me. I keep thinking I should be so excited for this...the sibling rivalries that will be avoided...the chairs not to be argued over....the messes not to be made. These are reasons to be rejoice, right?Instead, I sit here, looking at his baby pictures, wondering if I taught him enough, loved him enough, and praised him enough. Even as I type, a flood of other questions and worries enters my mind. Is he on track to become the man he was sent here to become? Is he going to be kind? Is he going to remember what he was taught? As a biased mother, my glasses are rosy, my expectations great. But are they too great? Do I place on him too much pressure? It's a never-ending paridoxical quandry.
There is a notible auditory difference when he is gone, and I am dreading it :) His tall tales, his hour long stories to explain why he didn't brush his teeth, his dramatic recreations through use of stuffed animals of Ben 10 meets He-Man meets Superman meets Transformers...quality entertainment :)
For now, I have to get my game face on, and be ready for that most awful moment.....
"Bye, Mom."
4 comments:
You said everything I've been feeling all day long! I know that he is your first and that is certainly one of the most difficult moments. Tomorrow I'll be sending off 3 and they say it gets easier as the years go by, but I still cry on the first day of school - no matter what grade they are in!
i know how you feel. it's still a year away (kindergarten) and i'm already dreading it. and exactly how you said he'll be spending the majority of his day with someone else is exactly what i worry about too. no longer will you be that sole influence in his life. i couldn't possibly be a good home-schooler but the thought is appealing when you think that you could continue being their #1 educator. you'll do great though. if you cry, that's fine i'm sure.
I know exactly how you feel! I have had a sick feeling for the last week dreading today. I know Zerin will do great! You are the best mom and he is the greatest kids. It is just so hard not having all your little chickens around. Call me if you need someone to cry with.
Today was such a sad day for me too! Sending my sweet little Jaylee to school all day. Hoping that she eats her lunch, that her teacher is, the kids are nice to her, and she doesn't learn all kind of things I don't want her to learn. But they will all do great and love it!
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