Normal life has been happening and those feelings of being overwhelmed have been almost suffocating as different things have unfolded, but as I have heard these kind comments and remembered back upon the feelings of peace I had after the blessing Bryan gave me a few weeks ago, I know the timing of this baby is right. I know I want to believe that we're at that part of the movie where things just seem the most bleak, but it's really on the brink of being a happily ever after. Of course upon reflection, I've had several posts like this, so maybe my definition of 'bleak' needs some tweaking ;)
In any case, I'm grateful for the countless blessings I am able to enjoy each and every day. I am grateful for each and every one of my precious babies. I am grateful for a husband who is my soulmate. I am grateful for opportunities to become more humble. I am grateful for pickles, sierra mist, and sour patch kids. I am grateful for 9 year old hugs, 7 year old smiles, 4 year old kisses, 3 year old snuggles, and 1 year old giggles.
I have a very good life.
4 comments:
And at 6:40 am no less! You're awesome and I love this post. :)
I need to hire you to write my blog. So many of your honest thoughts are exactly how I feel most the time. Like "trusting Heavenly Father and wanting to do His will, but having that little fear that this is where we are going to be, etc..." Wow, my guilt sets in everyday cause I have all these thoughts and feelings and things going on with our little family that I want to write about and have a huge desire and need to document. I admire you so much and thanks for your sharing your blog--your honest, heart felt feelings. Know that you are not the only one feeling the way you do about a lot of the things you write about.
Again I love your attitude! And sour patch was my thing with Cardon too. I ate so many of them my tongue was raw!
You are such a great mom, Heavenly Father totally trusts you to send another one of His children down. You'll do great. I had a hard time accepting things when I was pregnant with Reagan, but it has worked ou. Sure, I'm still crazy, but it's a sacrifice I'm glad to make. I still apologize to her for being negative about it...
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