More good news...

So Cindy is out of the ICU!!! On Sunday, we thought we were losing her, and here she is, out of the ICU!!! So exciting. They are starting to take her off her pain meds, so she feels pretty yucky still, but even that's good news in it's own way. She has another week or two still at the hospital depending on how she does, but holy cow, it's just awesome!

Jonathan got here this morning, and it's just funny watching all the kids chase each other around all day. I know he misses his parents, but I feel good knowing he is having fun during the day and has some good distractions (aka. Zerin, Liah, Aeden, Asher, and Shadeau) to keep him occupied while he's away from them. He's such a cutie!

So thanks for all of the advice on the last post, everyone :) I had pretty much decided to hold off on getting induced, and then...(da-da-da-DA! *mysterious music*)...

...I found out the medicine won't hurt Belen if I'm nursing....good news.
...Our bank called and wants to close at the beginning to middle of next week...not such good news.
...My cold is all but gone...great news.
...Bryan is still sick (today was his 2nd day home)...cruddy news.

So...I'm basically winging it, and hoping I make the right decision when the moment comes. I'm not canceling anything, but I'm not counting on having her this week either. As cruddy as I feel, I really wouldn't mind waiting until next week (past that may do me in, however). Not to be dramatic, but the last week has been way worse than any of my labors WHILE I was being induced.

Last night, my contractions were so bad, I was wondering if I should go to the hospital or not. I started getting mad at Bryan..."Just tell me what I'm supposed to do!" I yelled at him. "I don't know...it's your body, just do what you think you should." he retorted, as he changed the channel, not lifting his gaze from the TV. "If I KNEW what I was supposed to do I wouldn't be asking you, so just TELL me!!!" I was a little animated to say the least. When he wouldn't give me any more direction, I finally was like, "Fine, give me a blessing then." Aren't I so spiritual...not! ;) The neat thing about all of it was after the blessing, I just felt calm, and quit second guessing myself and was able to fall asleep. I only woke up a couple of times with contractions, but by morning, the contractions had all but stopped, and I knew I had done the right thing. It may come down to the wire like this Thursday night, but I feel like when the time comes, we'll know what to do...hopefully ;) Seriously, I'm missing the boat on why people think this whole surprise thing is fun. I love those of you all who can do it, and wow, am I impressed because it's definitely not something that comes easily or naturally to me, that's for sure :) Kudos to all of my hard-core-die-hard-wait-and-see-natural-all-the-way buddies out there. You're awesome!!!