So today was the Oquirrh Mountain Temple Dedication, and I didn't go. The bad part is, that I have planned on not going since I heard about it. I have made no secret of my abhorrance for public appearances right now, coupled with feeling like an invalid, I wanted nothing to do with going.
I feel horrible now, especially since Bryan was boxed in by cute married couples on every side when he went this afternoon. He said he didn't care, but I still felt bad. I love the spirit that is in those special meetings, but I couldn't pull any amount of enthusiasm together to get up the gumption to go. I am sure what I did at home was far more physically challenging that sitting on a bench for an hour and a half, but it seemed like the most insurmountable task at the time. Now, I just feel like a big fat slacker...like I'm one of the 5 virgins that forgot to pack extra oil.
It's interesting to me how as I hit these plateaus in life, where things may not be going perfectly, but they are going smoothly, how quickly I allow myself to get sidetracked and unencumbered with the weightier matters. I allow projects to take precidence. I forget so quickly how everything good I have and am has nothing to me, and everything to do with Him.
So on first day of school eve, I am once again, recommitting. Recommitting to try, prioritize, not make excuses, and most of all, to "Remember..."
2 comments:
I go through those spiritual/ emotional hills and valleys all the time Tiff, espeically when I'm pregnant ;).
I can't believe you will be a mother of 5 soon and I can't believe you hand make all of your christmas stockings!!!
You never cease to amaze me Tiff. Thanks for reminding me to "remember" what is important. I tend to forget so easily.
I have felt that way, too, even when I'm not pregnant. You are amazing. Remember that. I am glad you knew to give yourself a break this time. I don't know how you get the energy to do all the other things that you do!!!
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