My blog, my friend...

Do you ever write on your blog just to have someone to talk to? I admit it, I do. Mainly because, with 4 kids, phone conversations become increasingly difficult because it turns into a green light for kids to take advantage of the lack of supervision. Drop in visits happen next to never because if you have a friend, and you bring your 4 kids to their house, they may not want to be your friend anymore. I am great at email, but I don't think a lot of people feel the same way. And I think I feel less guilty spewing my life all over the pages of a blog people choose to visit, rather than verbally dumping the same issues on someone in person, as that individual may not have known what they were getting themselves into when they asked those three magic words..."how are you?"

So thus, I blog. Sometimes about something, most other times about nothing. Kathleen Kelly from You've Got Mail says it best, "I pretend we are the oldest and dearest of friends, in the middle of a conversation....All of these nothings have meant so much more to me than so many somethings."

In light of Elder Bednar's talk last week, I am feeling a bit torn as to what to do. On particularly hard days, I find myself checking my email, facebook, and blog several times a day, hoping for a response, acknowledgement, or feedback. Adult interaction. I do not want to fall into that same category of people whom he describes when he said,

Sadly, some young men and women in the Church today ignore “things as they really are” and neglect eternal relationships for digital distractions, diversions, and detours that have no lasting value. My heart aches when a young couple—sealed together in the house of the Lord for time and for all eternity by the power of the holy priesthood—experiences marital difficulties because of the addicting effect of excessive video gaming or online socializing. A young man or woman may waste countless hours, postpone or forfeit vocational or academic achievement, and ultimately sacrifice cherished human relationships because of mind- and spirit-numbing video and online games. As the Lord declared, “Wherefore, I give unto them a commandment … : Thou shalt not idle away thy time, neither shalt thou bury thy talent that it may not be known” (D&C 60:13).

As I weigh these two sides, I know I should be spending less time on my computer, but shamefully, I don't know if I am willing to give up or at least scale down on this sanity saver. There are days when a two sentence comment on my blog can be the difference between a good day and something else.

Alas, I have a house to paint, sheds to tear down, a patio to roof, a sprinkling system to finish, laundry to do, children to play with, and papers to file...so many papers to file! So let the daunting task of trying to be perfect begin....again :)