But there was one set of events I am selectively excluding from that blockout. In the afternoon, when Asher was still napping and Zerin was at a friend's house, I took Liah and Aeden outside with me...we put up the tramp, we blew bubbles, and j
ust hung out together. I get frustrated a lot because I can't take Asher outside hardly at all because he has this uncontrollable need to eat dirt and play in the road...two things most parents, pediatricians and policemen frown on. It's not just a need, it's a compulsion...you put him down and within 10 seconds, the boy has an entire glob of dirt in his mouth...complete with huge rocks and other things that could kill him. And with no yard, it's just hard to do things with all of them anywhere but inside. But yesterday was different. Liah stayed with me and helped almost the entire time I put up the tramp...over an hour. And they both played bubbles with me for a good 30 minutes. Asher woke up right as we were finishing the bubbles, so I brought him out. He chased one bubble on his way to the dirt mound and had a glob in his mouth before I could make it across the driveway. Love that boy. On a day I felt like, "why the crap did I think I could raise these special spirits?"...those special little spirits raised me. It was a gift on a day when I felt abandoned on all fronts. My kids were my salvation.
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I've had those days and I was so grateful that my kiddos were able to pull me back to earth and remind me of the things that really matter.
ps LOVE your pic of Liah, beautiful.
pps good luck with the open house, I wish I could be there to celebrate with you!
Our kids raise us just as much (maybe even more) than we raise them and I am starting to understand that I need to be a good mother to myself if I want to be a better mom for my kids.
(Also, I adore you and your blog. Your comments on my blog also. You have helped me and supported me with your words and sharing your perspective, more than you can know. It helps so much to hear the good and the bad; to be reminded that both are necessary to help us learn the crap we are supposed to learn. Big hugs from Layton!)
What a great thought - I have never considered that on those days my kids are teaching me. I think I recognize it, but without acknowledgment does it really matter? Thanks for sharing and opening my eyes to a new clue from our Father in Heaven!
That's the best! I'm glad your kids can help you out when you're having a moment. It's always when I think I can't handle it anymore that somehow I recognize what a blessing my children truly are. Thank goodness for times like those! It helps balance out the others.
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